2012 我在dallas

沿着网上流行的格式，我也打算这么开始我的2011新年总结。2011, Boston, New York, D.C., Cape Cod, Rockport, Salem, New Haven, Dallas 有我。2011年一整年都没有踏上祖国的土地，都没有和爸爸妈妈见上一面，心里总是有些失落和惆怅。但2011我生命中也出现了那么多人，也一直有朋友的陪伴，虽然依然幼稚依然孩子气但也摸爬滚打渐渐也有了丝沧桑。人过了25岁，日子总像在追着你跑。回忆过去的几年，虽然见识广了，但是似乎什么都还在原地徘徊，事业未成（简单说现在的状态是失业），爱情也没有起色（虽然有段让我刻骨铭心的爱情，但也是无疾而终，修成正果何时才能达到）。每当想到这些，就十分地沮丧。恨不得能一觉起来，第二天一切都摆在面前。也许这是电影的荼毒吧，短短七八十分钟讲述一生，而一生缺如此漫长又如此短暂。

今晚在舒展，京通家一起跨年，一起吃了dimsum，一起看了电影once，一起看了time square的跨年live。现在巴黎时间7点36分，你比我早到2012年7个小时。bonne annee. 我突然好想反悔，好想和你说，我们不要断了联系，我们写信，写很长很长的信，我们做朋友先，也许有一天，有一天，也许我们再在一起的时候，就不会显得那么陌生，恍如隔世。

新的一年，希望慢慢生活，慢慢爱，慢慢成长，慢慢体会。

After reading Shapiro's Coloring Book

Our love didn't break as others have sharp fragments that hurt
Afraid of fading in tedious we let it trap in the time, a smile farewell.

One day my body was a shell merely to contain you.
The next day, empty of you. Got to be filled somehow.

I read, I travel, I write,
as if we were traveling separately.
But sometimes I remember the sweetness,
and it bears your name.

I murmured to myself maybe maybe.

A tree that once was a seedling
A guitar that once was a truck of bare wood
A view from the window that once was yesterday's
that once was last year's
Once we were in each other's life

I wished this chapter never closes

All I Want Is You

How many roads must went down before we meet again

How many nights must passed through before I can feel your warmth

So long, so long

How many people must walked by till we meet again

How many winters must I survive till I can feel your warmth

So long, so long

Mistletoes turn green, Maples turn red.

Mountains away, Oceans apart.

I will be brave, 

You will be all right.

So long, so long

À la recherche du temps perdu

This is my last weekend in New york city. The past two months inspired me a lot. I feel the pace matched, i kind of fit in. After all, it's an city of Amazingness. lol it's a seamless city, filled with so many things waiting there for you to discover. But as of every big city, the glory comes with shadow. You feel the loneliness, irresponsibleness, filth, being swallowed. You need peace here. However, there is always an however to make you love a thing regardless of those crappies, ATTITUDES TRUMPS.

Once in a while, you will feel depressed, everyone does. Once in a while, you will feel happy, and grateful. Life is a process that you need to savor and learn to appreciate. Once you take everything as grounded, you never aware how lucky you are.

I don't know why. Sometimes i always do thing against my true wiliness. Guess i am just a coward, afraid of embracing who i am, who i now turned into after all those years. My mind looses, drifts. I burst into cry out of no where.  I miss my parents, but hesitate reaching them. I need friends, but i am scare to have one. Always whispering to myself, hey, be tough, be strong, the more i said so, i feel more vulnerable. Good old time is a mysterious thing, it always looks so pure, so bright. By then , our mind is so straight forward, no twist, no wondering, no guessing. We are truly happy. Gosh, i am being so negative now.

i want to have my own gang! Someone you can count on no matter what. Nothing comes easy, and nothing comes without price. And PATIENT.  Learn how to enjoy life by myself, then other things will follow and come. Like happiness.

July 30th, back to Boston!

old post [有一拉布拉多叫marley] 2009-06-18

marley & me
拉布拉多--
一只UNIQUE的小狗-
一只为了当MASTER而不是PAPA而来的小狗
一只只值200磅的clearance puppy

它是个战士
它每时每刻都爱着它的家人
它一动不动九个小时守在生病的CONOR身边

一部讲述平凡生活的片子 每个角色都经历着自己的成长 无论是jenny还是John Grogan，或者petric...
伴随着marley，生活也在点点滴滴地进行。为人妻为人夫，为人父母，事业，家庭，责任。。没有什么和你想象的一样，什么的都和计划的不一样，but it is better!!!
Just as he joyfully refused any limits on his behaviour, his love and loyalty were boundless, too.

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Commencement Day!

BU field hockey team member  lines up the chairs in Nickerson Field in preparation for Sunday’s Comencement. 

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 Be a happy elephant :P  intoxicate itself by fully loaded truck. :P

(Using this photo only because of the "BU RED"!